I followed the instructions very carefully. It was my first piss in the morning because it said that it should be done best in the morning. The result was a false positive, or so I thought. It has a clearly visible line on the C part, but a faint line on the T. Which I have read means that there must be another reason for that faint line besides being pregnant.
I trashed my thinking that I am pregnant and started believing that I have an illness instead, as if it's a better thought. But I figured that it is indeed better than being pregnant. Because it will be easier for my family to swallow than my pregnancy.
But today, I was proved wrong. I went to a clinic with my boyfriend. And there we found out that I was really pregnant. They made me lie on a bed and rubbed cold jelly on my pelvic area then there was this machine that functions as a speaker. It was then that I first heard my baby's heartbeart. It was very fast. I didn't know how to react. I wanted to cry because shit I'm 20, I'm unemployed, I literally do not know anything about household things what more being a mother, and I'm pregnant. How the fuck should I tell my family that there's a baby inside of me??? I admit that I was saddened with the fact that I am no longer alone, that there's already two of me, one of which is insid me, but I still couldn't help but smile because wtf! This is still my baby!!! And this is the fucking first time that I have ever heard him/her.
So I found out that I was almost 5 months pregnant. I was advised to buy Drexabionn to take at night because I haven't taken any vitamins on my first trimester of pregnancy.
It was a mixture of Vitamin B, iron and folic acid. It made my poop look as dark as my soul. Chos!
The woman in the clinic also gave me this booklet.
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